I'm having one of those nights where I just want to lie down and stare into space but I can't because there are a million things to think about.
I think about how lucky i am to have gotten closer to some of my friends this year. I think about how lucky I am to have met people with kind hearts who gives a shit about how i actually feel. I think about how lucky I am to be able to experience 4 music festivals this year and made some new friends through these festivals. Most of all, I think about how lucky I am that my family and friends are healthy and mostly happy.
I think about the number of times i cried this year and the reasons I was crying and the people who were there to tell me that everything is going to be okay and I think about whether or not they would let me do the same for them when they feel like shit themselves because i would do that for them and i hope that they know that.
I think about what i am going to do next year after i leave my job. I hope i'll be happier and I hope that everyone will be happier and that we will all still be friends and I hope that i've done enough during the time i was there.
I think about how shitty of a daughter i have been the past 2.5 years and I want to know how I am going to change that but I don't have an answer just yet. I think about my promises to people and I wonder if i am able to keep all of them. 2018 has got to be better. I have got to be better for it to be. and I wonder if i can be. better.
I think about how lucky i am to have gotten closer to some of my friends this year. I think about how lucky I am to have met people with kind hearts who gives a shit about how i actually feel. I think about how lucky I am to be able to experience 4 music festivals this year and made some new friends through these festivals. Most of all, I think about how lucky I am that my family and friends are healthy and mostly happy.
I think about the number of times i cried this year and the reasons I was crying and the people who were there to tell me that everything is going to be okay and I think about whether or not they would let me do the same for them when they feel like shit themselves because i would do that for them and i hope that they know that.
I think about what i am going to do next year after i leave my job. I hope i'll be happier and I hope that everyone will be happier and that we will all still be friends and I hope that i've done enough during the time i was there.
I think about how shitty of a daughter i have been the past 2.5 years and I want to know how I am going to change that but I don't have an answer just yet. I think about my promises to people and I wonder if i am able to keep all of them. 2018 has got to be better. I have got to be better for it to be. and I wonder if i can be. better.
